Demons and monsters fighting in and out of me

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Such a pathetic bunch of flash and bones I am. The only thing I can do is wondering, and wondering, and wandering. Cluelessly. I was laying on the front veranda this morning, Lou and her friend Kate chatting in front of a cuppa, me silently looking up, the sky painted in an aching bright deep blue, the top of the green lush gumtrees floating with the wind, the sun warming me up, the earth, the summer and the unbearable beauty of the moment surrounding me, me just sinking in it, in the light. Tears stinging to get out. I see the world and it’s so beautiful. I see life, my life is so beautiful, full of colours, light, people, love. And this is why I’m so unhappy, so desperate. I am among people, but no-one is with me. I’m just nearby, they are just nearby. I can’t share the beauty, I can’t share my thoughts. I can write them down here, or I can draw endless skies, I can draw love that I imagine between people that I imagine, that I imagine to be, but I can’t do anything to share all of this with someone in reality, not in the tangible world.

https://animascalza.wordpress.com/2021/01/24/my-whole-life

You may recall a post I made a few months ago …

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in which I mentioned that “I am not at all proud of the species I apparently belong to” (“I understand that this is very important to you”). Another way of putting this idea is that I have little trust in the human species (that is very general – perhaps it might be more appropriate to say that I have little trust in the vast majority of humans; there are a very small number of humans in whom I might be able to manage to have a small amount of trust in).

http://remediary.com/2021/02/11/in-what-we-trust

I don’t want to fit in

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For me, to fit in, means to bend myself to a shape that I am not. I know enough about myself at this point in my life to know that I am flexible and I will bend but I only want to do this in ways that suit me and certainly not for the benefit of those who require it of me so that I can neatly fit in the box that they have allocated for me. That isn’t me. That would be a bent out of shape version of me.

https://417daysayear.wordpress.com/2020/12/02/how-important-is-fitting-in

Log the fuck out of social media and recover

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Make no mistake, loneliness kills and I am not advocating that anyone isolate, especially if you’re depressed or struggling. In that case, by all means, reach out on social media and know you are loved. You matter. But I will say that learning how to go from loneliness to solitude has been one of the greatest gifts I’ve ever given myself and it’s been in those moments of quiet, I’ve come to know my strength.

(100) Free Solo: The Holidays – Phetasy Community

Accents allow us to feel part of a social group, and can give us a sense of identity and belonging

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Humans have developed this incredible ability to read each other’s voices. By listening closely to someone’s accent, we can make guesses about their age, gender, nationality, social status, the languages they speak, and even where they went to school. Unfortunately, this finely-honed skill also has a dark side. As an accent can tell us so much about a person, we often attribute qualities to that person based on their voice, just as we often make assumptions about a person based on how they look.

https://thelanguagebrain.wordpress.com/2020/09/09/everyone-has-an-accent-what-does-yours-say-about-you