You don’t want to put yourself over others, but you have to

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When you have a fear to lose people, they will walk out from you trying to control that situation and trying to keep them. You slowly learn after each relationship and friendship, people leave and it will hurt. And each time, I get a little less cold. Still angry, but slowly keeping myself open to everything.

https://livinginjeneral.wordpress.com/2019/12/11/connections-after-disconnection

It only serves as a reminder of the kind of people I never want to get involved with again

Keywords: being single, blog, blogging, cheated on, controversy, daily entries, diary, diary entry, discussion, eating, everydays, goals, infidelity, lockdown, loneliness, Mental Health, nihilism, problems, quarantine, relationships, single, thinking, thinking diary

Now I’m dedicating time to becoming the person I want to be. The person who is utterly unaffected by jealousy or envy, the type of person who says “I’ve had enough and I’m out, I deserve way better.” Hopefully, a wholesome and equal love will enter my life, if I do what’s right for me.

https://faithsthinkingdiary.wordpress.com/2020/05/13/%e2%9c%a7-entry-46-thats-enough-%e2%9c%a7

Barbells and Belly Shirts

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I’ve thought a long time about what I am going to write, if I should even write, what is Screenshot_2019-09-29-12-33-44~2even the fucking point? But whatever. it’s kind of therapeutic for me, so here I am. Over a year ago was my last blog post. It was bitching about being fat. That was my main reason why I decided to write again. I was so angry, broken by my own body, or what my idea of what my body should look like. There was so much guilt and shame, but I can say with confidence that I am different from that woman. Not yet whole, but definitely healthier and more happy.

I have always been overweight. Well, since I can remember anyway. I have also hated my body just as long. No matter how active I was, my body refused to be anything but just overweight. Like most girls, I was…

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