When I berate myself for missing such deadlines my toxicity seem to spread so bad we do not get anything accomplished that much

Keywords: brain farts , brainfarts , creativewriting

I want kids to learn how to work in grace under pressure too. I used to be too focused on outcome that I tend to forget the process itself. There are still things I would need to polish with my working style I have adapted. As always I am a work in progress.

https://keivoice.wordpress.com/2020/12/10/work-now

I don’t want to fit in

Keywords: living , fitting , fitting in , happiness , israel , living , mental-health , nationality , race , racism , religion

For me, to fit in, means to bend myself to a shape that I am not. I know enough about myself at this point in my life to know that I am flexible and I will bend but I only want to do this in ways that suit me and certainly not for the benefit of those who require it of me so that I can neatly fit in the box that they have allocated for me. That isn’t me. That would be a bent out of shape version of me.

https://417daysayear.wordpress.com/2020/12/02/how-important-is-fitting-in