I know now that there are some things too big and too painful to be fixed by simply “washing my face” of it

Keywords: Grief , Loss , Motherhood , single mom , single parenting , Suicide , Widow

Each of my kids feels the loss of their dad in a different way, and I feel helpless in that I know this is something I can’t fix for them. My boy, who was 5 when his dad died, can still recall the life he had with him. There is both joy and sadness in those memories, and also a fear of losing someone else he cares about. My daughter, who was only 2 1/2, only really knows a life without a daddy. She begins to notice at daycare and then at school, that she is one of the only kids without one, and so she asks me if we can “find” her a dad…as if it is as simple as putting an ad in the paper, picking the best option and inserting him into our lives without there being any expectations on me with this man.

https://messybutneverbroken.com/2021/05/07/not-instagram-approved

When I’m 25, I want to look back and be proud of my decisions

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Growing up, my sister and I had to take care of ourselves because both our parents work. And after observing the dynamic at home, we formed our own opinions about the way relationships work. I guess that’s why, while I always say I wish I had someone I hold particularly dear to my heart, I’m completely okay with being on my own because I hate the thought of having to baby a man who isn’t in tune with his emotions, or one who is awfully insensitive. Spare me the anguish.

https://vertigobutnotreally.wordpress.com/2021/05/03/21-going-22

I was so prepared to one day leave home

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I’m lonely but sometimes in a secret part of my heart, I don’t want the pandemic to end. It’s horrible. I’ll be so much happier when it ends. But part of me never wants to leave my parents home. I’m lonely I miss my friends. But this pandemic made me scared of the outside world. It made me cuddle up with my blankey (Mr. Blankey) and cry.

https://ruthseculartheblog.wordpress.com/2021/01/18/im-lonely-a-letter-to-my-friends