Demons and monsters fighting in and out of me

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Such a pathetic bunch of flash and bones I am. The only thing I can do is wondering, and wondering, and wandering. Cluelessly. I was laying on the front veranda this morning, Lou and her friend Kate chatting in front of a cuppa, me silently looking up, the sky painted in an aching bright deep blue, the top of the green lush gumtrees floating with the wind, the sun warming me up, the earth, the summer and the unbearable beauty of the moment surrounding me, me just sinking in it, in the light. Tears stinging to get out. I see the world and it’s so beautiful. I see life, my life is so beautiful, full of colours, light, people, love. And this is why I’m so unhappy, so desperate. I am among people, but no-one is with me. I’m just nearby, they are just nearby. I can’t share the beauty, I can’t share my thoughts. I can write them down here, or I can draw endless skies, I can draw love that I imagine between people that I imagine, that I imagine to be, but I can’t do anything to share all of this with someone in reality, not in the tangible world.

https://animascalza.wordpress.com/2021/01/24/my-whole-life

I truly feel like I’m starting over but I can’t start because I don’t know where to, and this bout’s acceptance process has left me holistically exhausted, apathetically hopeless, and aimlessly wandering

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I have absolutely no desire to find a job in my career field and I lost the one person who fully knew and loved me throughout my life. What do I do with that? What, of value, do I even have left? I don’t know who I’m turning into but I know God can make something of her with however much time she has on earth.

https://courtneymessinger.wordpress.com/2020/12/16/remains

Instead of putting a lot of significance on material things, perhaps you can divert that energy towards people and relationships that matter

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My two most often questions when buying are 1.) where do I put this in the house, and 2.) will I use this? That’s why we don’t usually have “special occasion items” at home (except, of course, Christmas decorations). Keyword is “usually”, because we’re not perfect either, but we try our best.

https://chatoverflatwhite.com/2020/09/27/do-you-save-your-things-for-special-occasions-and-why-you-shouldnt