I know now that there are some things too big and too painful to be fixed by simply “washing my face” of it

Keywords: Grief , Loss , Motherhood , single mom , single parenting , Suicide , Widow

Each of my kids feels the loss of their dad in a different way, and I feel helpless in that I know this is something I can’t fix for them. My boy, who was 5 when his dad died, can still recall the life he had with him. There is both joy and sadness in those memories, and also a fear of losing someone else he cares about. My daughter, who was only 2 1/2, only really knows a life without a daddy. She begins to notice at daycare and then at school, that she is one of the only kids without one, and so she asks me if we can “find” her a dad…as if it is as simple as putting an ad in the paper, picking the best option and inserting him into our lives without there being any expectations on me with this man.

https://messybutneverbroken.com/2021/05/07/not-instagram-approved

To be so in-tune with others’ energies, through the use of body language, tone, and something ethereal that I don’t understand is a way we can protect ourselves, and experiencing enough trauma can hone this perception of energy shifts

Keywords: miscellaneous , energy , love , manifesting , psychology , ptsd , sex , sexual abuse , therapy , trauma

Someone extremely close to me calls this manipulation the “World as Myth” or pantheistic solipsism, which is when certain writers bring things and events to existence through their minds.

https://bambooandbananas.org/journal-entry-20

I don’t know why she’s angry at me! I never hurt her! I don’t deserve this!

Keywords: archives , attachment , attunement , betrayal , betrayal trauma , commitment , emotional attunement , empathy , featured , small things often , trauma , trust

As Michael did, we can listen and learn from those we’ve wounded. Simultaneously, we need to connect with the wounded parts of ourselves, as we each recognize our culpability and seek to change. We can do this through practices of self-compassion or spiritual practices of confession, repentance, and atonement.

https://www.gottman.com/blog/neutrality-is-invalidation