I know now that there are some things too big and too painful to be fixed by simply “washing my face” of it

Keywords: Grief , Loss , Motherhood , single mom , single parenting , Suicide , Widow

Each of my kids feels the loss of their dad in a different way, and I feel helpless in that I know this is something I can’t fix for them. My boy, who was 5 when his dad died, can still recall the life he had with him. There is both joy and sadness in those memories, and also a fear of losing someone else he cares about. My daughter, who was only 2 1/2, only really knows a life without a daddy. She begins to notice at daycare and then at school, that she is one of the only kids without one, and so she asks me if we can “find” her a dad…as if it is as simple as putting an ad in the paper, picking the best option and inserting him into our lives without there being any expectations on me with this man.

https://messybutneverbroken.com/2021/05/07/not-instagram-approved

I have some real life longevity goals, but first I need to have the credentials to achieve them

Keywords: blog , slice of life , 6 pm , 6pm , by6pm , paige six , paigesix , six pm , sixpm

I’m not in a rush. I want to have high scores and be able to do this at my leisure. My daughter is still home, and young enough to need me frequently. I also will need to be in school for some of my more focused classes working with the plants or in a lab, so I can’t set myself up for failure by devoting all of my time to school when I know that I will have obligations at home to compete for time with.

https://by6pm.art/2021/04/19/a-change-in-plans

Slapped in the face….. by my own father

Keywords: abuse , blm , childrensday , daddyslittlegirl , family , familyties , fear , friends , heartbroken , homelife , pain , politics , rolemodels , war

Family is created not born. My friends reached out to check in on me. That is family. Having my back, listening and telling me what they think. I have some family members that don’t do that. Shown their true colors. But that’s a story for another time. It’s been a week. I have been ignoring him. Not talking unless spoken too. I will be civil. But I will not forgive you. Even if he apologizes. I am done. I do not condone violence. He walks as if he did the right thing. Bitch, just give me my money so I don’t have to deal with you. Acting like the alpha, when he does zip. Nada. Clean the house, nah, wash the dishes, laundry, make dinner. Nope. “That’s a woman’s job,” he says.

https://kloudnine.home.blog/2020/08/28/daddys-little-girl