I was about 11 when this show came out and I adored it

Keywords: health , lessons , me , rant , weightloss , bodyimage , diet , diet culture , fat , growing up

I found the main actresses so beautiful and so thin. I wanted their lives. I wanted their flat stomachs. It taught me that the blonde, beautiful, thin women were revered while the ugly, chubby, brunette women were always cast aside.

https://lilbm.com/2021/01/09/lesson-41-if-you-cant-love-yourself-blame-the-media

Literally letting y’all take a peak at my diary

Keywords: christmas , divorce , feelings , healing , heart , holiday , journaling , party , vulnerable , writing

I fortify myself with grit and conviction and take another deep breath. I look up at the ceiling and let one lonely tear fall. I make an agreement with myself that it will be my only tear tonight. I gently pat my cheek dry, take one more look at myself in the mirror and this time the woman I see looking back is a fighter. I’m staring at her. I can see that she’s tough. She knows she can do this. She believes in her strength. She believes in herself.

https://reclaiminglacy.com/2020/12/17/reflections-on-last-christmas

I truly feel like I’m starting over but I can’t start because I don’t know where to, and this bout’s acceptance process has left me holistically exhausted, apathetically hopeless, and aimlessly wandering

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I have absolutely no desire to find a job in my career field and I lost the one person who fully knew and loved me throughout my life. What do I do with that? What, of value, do I even have left? I don’t know who I’m turning into but I know God can make something of her with however much time she has on earth.

https://courtneymessinger.wordpress.com/2020/12/16/remains